Good Morning from Uganda...technically it should be Good Evening From San Francisco but somebody missed their flight. The past two weeks were nothing short of amazing, loving, exhausting and fun.
I'm going to start with yesterday and work my way back as I blog. First apologies for not blogging as I went along. Mahadi is a very active little boy so from 6:30am-10:00pm I was always on the go with him. By the time I could blog I was ready to go to bed myself. Now as I have some time to myself at Josephine's I can start putting words into paragraphs to highlight the fun times, the not so fun times and where my head is at today.
On Friday, we were getting ready to leave Mahadi's school, I told his bio mom- we will drop him at your house on Wednesday. So all week long I was preparing Mahadi for Wednesday, on Wednesday you are going to your mom's and I'm flying to America. On Tuesday morning, I wanted to get on British Airway's website to check my flight, pick my seats etc. But I got interrupted by Mahadi and figured I could get on line that night after he went to bed. That didn't happen either. Yesterday morning, bags are packed, we have had breakfast and I get onto BA's website and it says I can't check in...and that's when it clicks....my flight was actually Tuesday night/Wednesday morning. I start FREAKING out...and Jack is trying to calm me down and I'm trying to find my US phone and American Airlines can't help me, so I get the BA number in Kampala and the lady says she will have to call me back and Mahadi is in the background saying "mommy mommy mommy I want the phone". He clearly doesn't understand panic. I'm on the verge of tears because A- I had mentally prepared to leave that day. B- I was terribly afraid this new ticket was going to cost me thousands of dollars. C- I really needed to be in the office this week.
As I'm crying and trying to figure out what step to take first Mahadi's like you're crying mommy. Jack tried to explain to him me crying at this time had nothing to do with him.
An hour goes by and I call BA back...she says I have to buy a whole new ticket....thankfully she was telling me it was $640 and not $1,500. I decided to get on American's website to see if i could use miles. I was able to book a new flight for tonight (Thursday) using 37,000 miles and paying $325.00...not money I wanted to spend but thankfully now nearly as much as I thought it was going to be. I also am thankful I'm able to get out relatively quickly as BA only flies out of Entebbe 3 times a week.
We got that situation straightened out and we started to head to Mahadi's school, but first we stopped for lunch. I was already crying in the car and really didn't want to eat. Jack and Josephine both said they were going to leave me if I didn't stop crying...not because they are mean, but because they don't like to see me in pain.
We had decided to take Mahadi back to school instead of his mom's per his grandma's instructions on Monday. We arrived to school and were told by Madame Emmy that Jja-jja (Mahadi's grandma) had left that morning to go check on her own mother who was sick. Mahadi would be looked after by Madame Emmy until Jja-jja returned. I trust Madame Emmy fully, so there was no concern there.
Most of the children left on Friday to go back to family villages for the next 2 months because it's the school holidays. Because of lack of money for food at Mahadi's school, the school has really started campaigning for kids to go "home" for the holiday break. There were still about 50 kids there, 50 kids with nowhere to go. some of the 50 kids are now in high school or older because they started at AGL when they were young didn't have anywhere to go and still don't have anywhere to go. It was 3pm when we go there and because Jja-jja was gone no meals had been cooked that day. Madame Emmy explained that most kids can cook for themselves and I said what about Mahadi she said I will cook for him. But it was disturbing that the kids who were still there had not been cooked for and it was nearly 4pm.
It's a complicated situation. Mahadi's official school name is Wakiso School Children of Hope, but you'll hear me refer to it as AGL, short for African Greater Life a non-profit a pastor started years ago to create a place for widows and orphaned children to go to. There are a lot of people who care about this school, but there is serious need for formal organization of who is donating money and what priorities are met first.
We stayed awhile and then decided to distribute the toothpaste, toothbrushes, vaseline, soap, panties and shoes to the kids who were at the school. We lined them up and passed out the toothpaste, toothbrushes, soap, and vaseline to all of the kids, even the big ones who are back from break. We then lined up the kid s who were under 13 and were able to provide shoes for every child under 13 who did not have a pair of shoes. The remaining shoes will be giving out once the kids return from holiday break, along with the remaining toothpaste, soap and toothbrushes. We then passed out the underwear to the girls and had picked up some pairs for younger boys. So thankful to Michael Mahoney and Brad Rolfe who felt compelled to do something based on my Facebook statuses. They were able to send me over $500. Some of that money was used for the final meal for 300 kids before all kids left for the holidays and the rest was used to buy the above hygiene products and shoes. I know many of you felt compelled to send me money or to donate in some way. I didn't solicit donations this time because for one it is a challenge to physically get the money once I'm already on the ground and for two I wanted to make sure I could handle a small assignment before all of a sudden I have thousands of dollars and no safe way to ensure items get distributed. Stay tuned for ways I want to start helping AGL became a good and functioning school.
After the distribution Mahadi was sitting on my lap and I was saying Mahadi, Mommy, Auntie Josephine and Uncle Jack are getting ready to leave. I was getting all teary-eyed telling him I loved him and to use his manners and be a good boy. It began to sink in with him that this time he wasn't going. Even though we had been preparing him all week long I don't think it had finally sunk in until that moment. He started balling. All the kids were around him telling him Mahadi we are here. We will play with you...it was awful. I went to the car and continued to cry as Josephine and Jack tried to calm him down. Then Josephine came to me and Jack was left with him and he stopped crying. Madame Emmy took him around back of one of the houses and told him she was going to buy him a sambusa, while Jack ran to the car and we drove off.
It was awful. Absolutely awful.
After about an hour I called Emmy and she said he was playing and was doing fine. I called Emmy this morning and she said he was fine. Then I got a chance to talk to him. He sounded good...we told each other we loved and missed the other one and I said I'll be back in 2013, ok? Ok. bye bye.
As much as I knew when the time would come to take Mahadi back school I'd be a wreck, I'm never prepared for how much I cry and I wonder if I'm doing the right thing...just showing up for a couple of weeks and then leaving him behind. Or is it better to not come at all? not for me but for him.
I'll write more about where my thoughts are on being in Mahadi's life in more permanent basis soon.
for now I'm signing off.
Thursday 29 November 2012
Wednesday 21 November 2012
Wonder World and other highlights
---Taking Mahadi to Wonder World, which Judy and I dubbed What the What World? A Ugandan amusement park with seriously outdated carnival rides and attendants who start the rides and then walk away....or rides who are unattended and a pack of hooligan children overtakes the ride...we thought for sure someone was losing an arm.
Saying to Mahadi "Who's the Boss?' He then says "you" (points to me).
Continuously asking Mahadi if he loves Judy....always no....but wait unless Judy has stickers, rice or fruit ninjas (iphone game).
Playing "Can you show me a black car? or Can you show me a white care. can you show me a policeman?" etc in the car.
Saying I love you to Mahadi and he now just flashes the number two...but then sometimes we get into I LOVe You TEN. etc.
Judy and I have arts and crafts day at Mahadi's school and almost dy in a mob of children who want pens or pencils...note to self show up at school with pre sharpened pencils and enough for each kid.
Negotiating with the pineapple man for 30 pineapple so the kids could have pineapple on Monday.
Watching Mahadi pick up my big camera and shoot away...he's a got a future as paparazzi.
Mahadi being silly as he drinks a fanta and says "ahhhhhh" after each sip.
Mahadi and his mood swings...from sweet happy little boy to an obstinate donkey.
Mahadi playing with his cars in the morning as I lay in bed wishing it was not 6:30am but so overcome with happiness I don't care I'm exhausted.
Trying to learn how to become an "African" parent and not an "American" parent...you know not panicking when your child is out of your eyesight..
Having dinner with Mahadi's grandma and teacher tonight in her two bedroom home under a lantern.
Watching Mahadi strip down to his swim shorts so quick I hardly knew was what was happening when he saw the pool...tonight his teacher says he had never been swimming...
writing this blog under mosquito net as mahadi snores like a wart hog and listening to other kids at the school sing praise songs....
and finally teasing Mahadi that his stomach is as big as a jackfruit and then thumping on it like a watermelon....
Saying to Mahadi "Who's the Boss?' He then says "you" (points to me).
Continuously asking Mahadi if he loves Judy....always no....but wait unless Judy has stickers, rice or fruit ninjas (iphone game).
Playing "Can you show me a black car? or Can you show me a white care. can you show me a policeman?" etc in the car.
Saying I love you to Mahadi and he now just flashes the number two...but then sometimes we get into I LOVe You TEN. etc.
Judy and I have arts and crafts day at Mahadi's school and almost dy in a mob of children who want pens or pencils...note to self show up at school with pre sharpened pencils and enough for each kid.
Negotiating with the pineapple man for 30 pineapple so the kids could have pineapple on Monday.
Watching Mahadi pick up my big camera and shoot away...he's a got a future as paparazzi.
Mahadi being silly as he drinks a fanta and says "ahhhhhh" after each sip.
Mahadi and his mood swings...from sweet happy little boy to an obstinate donkey.
Mahadi playing with his cars in the morning as I lay in bed wishing it was not 6:30am but so overcome with happiness I don't care I'm exhausted.
Trying to learn how to become an "African" parent and not an "American" parent...you know not panicking when your child is out of your eyesight..
Having dinner with Mahadi's grandma and teacher tonight in her two bedroom home under a lantern.
Watching Mahadi strip down to his swim shorts so quick I hardly knew was what was happening when he saw the pool...tonight his teacher says he had never been swimming...
writing this blog under mosquito net as mahadi snores like a wart hog and listening to other kids at the school sing praise songs....
and finally teasing Mahadi that his stomach is as big as a jackfruit and then thumping on it like a watermelon....
Sunday 18 November 2012
Anything but an Emotional Reunion
Judy and I arrived on Thursday night to Entebbe, quite uneventfully and on the other side of customs there Jack waited, excited to see me as I was to see him. We loaded up the vehicle and headed to our hotel. I had told Josephine it wasn't necessary to come meet us at the airport and it wasn't until the next day when I saw her, I may have hurt her feelings. I of course was looking out for her best interest we were landing late I really didn't want her to have to be up so late but in hindsight I should have had her come to the airport.
Friday morning we woke up and headed to the Market to meet Josephine. It was a super hot day I was getting sick and my non smoker "smoker's" cough was not getting any better. I was really not in the mood to shop at the market. We then got in the car to head to AGL, Mahadi's school. As we drove there it was strange I didn't really have any emotion, I wasn't nervous or excited, it was just more of a "matter of fact" feeling, maybe it's my stoicism or maybe it's because I didn't feel good.
We got to AGL and we were greeted by lots of children, but no Mahadi. Emmy, one of Mahadi's teachers came to greet us and said he was was asleep in her house. She said he had been so excited but that morning he woke up and was not feeling well. We walked into her room and there he was passed out cold, with fever and what I undoubtedly assumed was malaria. We woke him up and we sat in Emmy's front room with him on my lap. He was very melancholy and you could tell he did not feel well. Josephine suggested I come back and pick him up tomorrow when he felt better, but I was afraid if it was malaria that it wouldn't be treated, so we agreed I would take him that night.
Mahad's Jja-ja packed some things up for him and we left AGL. In the car he was in and out of happy and melancholy, many of you have seen the photo of him smiling in the car it was only one of a few that day. We went and had lunch, he ate well. And then we went to the clinic to get him tested for Malaria.
As we walked into the clinic Mahadi put it all together and made a beeline for the door, Jack and I grabbed him and Mahadi grabbed the railing and began to scream bloody murder, which I'm fairly certain if you had been listening closely all of you in America could have heard him screaming. Mind you I've just filled out the paper work trying to explain who I am. I have him in a bear hug saying soothing things in English and Jack in Lugandan is saying "they are just going to give you some tablets, they won't stick you". Full on lying but we were pulling out all the stops to get him to calm down. We finally calm him and get him into see the doctor. His fever is 100 degrees and the dr says we have to do a blood test. I asked Jack if it's just a prick because there is no way they are drawing blood out of this kid. We take him into the room to be stuck and he's sitting on my lap and the tech is preparing and he comes in for the prick but he's not quick enough. Jack, the tech and I all had to wrestle him in order to get the blood prick finished. Again bloody murder screaming, it was intense.
Blood test comes back positive he has malaria and an upper respiratory infection. We leave the clinic with three types of meds...the total cost visit, scrips, etc for less than $15.00. As the nurse was going over the prescriptions with me she said "he needs to take this one with milk or some kind of fat". I said "we are going to go have ice cream, will that work?" She gives me the best "you're a dumbass" look and says matter of factly "well ice cream has milk in it doesn't it?" Me sheepishly "um yes, just checking" So off to Nakumatt (Target) for ice cream which then turned into ice cream, fanta and popcorn at 8pm at night.
When we got to the hotel he was quite happy, I gave him a few toys to play with explaining to him that all the toys he was playing with weren't all for him and that at some point he would have to share them. He went to bed and I spent a good part of the night checking on him and his fever. It finally broke sometime in the middle of the night.
Saturday his disposition was so much brighter and you could tell the medicine was already making an improvement to how he was feeling. I on the other hand still felt like crap and had not gotten a good night's sleep. As happy as I was to be back in Kampala, I was drained from 2 weeks of travel prior, a cold and little sleep in the past 72 hours...the pollution and dust in Kampala was not making things better.
That's it for now...It's 2am and I'm hoping I can go to bed but the night club by our house is bumping so ol' R&B cuts which while I do appreciate them I'd appreciate them more if it wasn't keeping me awake.
Good night for now.
ag
Friday morning we woke up and headed to the Market to meet Josephine. It was a super hot day I was getting sick and my non smoker "smoker's" cough was not getting any better. I was really not in the mood to shop at the market. We then got in the car to head to AGL, Mahadi's school. As we drove there it was strange I didn't really have any emotion, I wasn't nervous or excited, it was just more of a "matter of fact" feeling, maybe it's my stoicism or maybe it's because I didn't feel good.
We got to AGL and we were greeted by lots of children, but no Mahadi. Emmy, one of Mahadi's teachers came to greet us and said he was was asleep in her house. She said he had been so excited but that morning he woke up and was not feeling well. We walked into her room and there he was passed out cold, with fever and what I undoubtedly assumed was malaria. We woke him up and we sat in Emmy's front room with him on my lap. He was very melancholy and you could tell he did not feel well. Josephine suggested I come back and pick him up tomorrow when he felt better, but I was afraid if it was malaria that it wouldn't be treated, so we agreed I would take him that night.
Mahad's Jja-ja packed some things up for him and we left AGL. In the car he was in and out of happy and melancholy, many of you have seen the photo of him smiling in the car it was only one of a few that day. We went and had lunch, he ate well. And then we went to the clinic to get him tested for Malaria.
As we walked into the clinic Mahadi put it all together and made a beeline for the door, Jack and I grabbed him and Mahadi grabbed the railing and began to scream bloody murder, which I'm fairly certain if you had been listening closely all of you in America could have heard him screaming. Mind you I've just filled out the paper work trying to explain who I am. I have him in a bear hug saying soothing things in English and Jack in Lugandan is saying "they are just going to give you some tablets, they won't stick you". Full on lying but we were pulling out all the stops to get him to calm down. We finally calm him and get him into see the doctor. His fever is 100 degrees and the dr says we have to do a blood test. I asked Jack if it's just a prick because there is no way they are drawing blood out of this kid. We take him into the room to be stuck and he's sitting on my lap and the tech is preparing and he comes in for the prick but he's not quick enough. Jack, the tech and I all had to wrestle him in order to get the blood prick finished. Again bloody murder screaming, it was intense.
Blood test comes back positive he has malaria and an upper respiratory infection. We leave the clinic with three types of meds...the total cost visit, scrips, etc for less than $15.00. As the nurse was going over the prescriptions with me she said "he needs to take this one with milk or some kind of fat". I said "we are going to go have ice cream, will that work?" She gives me the best "you're a dumbass" look and says matter of factly "well ice cream has milk in it doesn't it?" Me sheepishly "um yes, just checking" So off to Nakumatt (Target) for ice cream which then turned into ice cream, fanta and popcorn at 8pm at night.
When we got to the hotel he was quite happy, I gave him a few toys to play with explaining to him that all the toys he was playing with weren't all for him and that at some point he would have to share them. He went to bed and I spent a good part of the night checking on him and his fever. It finally broke sometime in the middle of the night.
Saturday his disposition was so much brighter and you could tell the medicine was already making an improvement to how he was feeling. I on the other hand still felt like crap and had not gotten a good night's sleep. As happy as I was to be back in Kampala, I was drained from 2 weeks of travel prior, a cold and little sleep in the past 72 hours...the pollution and dust in Kampala was not making things better.
That's it for now...It's 2am and I'm hoping I can go to bed but the night club by our house is bumping so ol' R&B cuts which while I do appreciate them I'd appreciate them more if it wasn't keeping me awake.
Good night for now.
ag
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